New Things

I have never been good at blogging. I've almost had an opposition to it... for a few reasons. First of all, I associate blogs with married people who tell everyone how great their lives are. I suppose their lives could just be that awesome, but to me, they lack genuineness, something I really appreciate... and maybe I'm a bit jealous. I get it, you're married. You went to Hawaii. Your kids are cute (Aw, look, his first spaghetti experience... it's all over his face. So adorable...).

Also, I have thought, why should I blog? Who would care what I have to say? And honestly, I do think that. But there is a part of me that wants people to care. Then, subsequently, the fear arises - what if no one cares what I have to say? I know, I shouldn't worry about that. I need to push that fear to the back of my head. I shouldn't blog for other people. I want to blog for myself.

I do want to say that I am self conscious about my writing ability. I'm just not very good at it. I read what I have written and usually think, "this sucks." But I figure, the only way to improve my writing is to do more of it. So, those who actually suffer through reading any of these posts, I apologize, but let's just hope it improves.

Which now brings me to my reason for posting today. There are a myriad of things I want to try, stuff I want to experience. So, what it is that holds me back? Honestly, laziness and fear. For example, I love the outdoors, but I don't get out much. Why don't I? I don't take the time to figure out where I can go. Let's attribute that one to laziness. Next example, fear. I have always wanted to approach a girl I've never met before, strike up a conversation and get her number. I feel that is an experience I need to have. Why have I never tried it? The cliche fear of rejection. But additionally, the fear of annoying the girl. Really though, that just comes back to me, because I have some weird fear of being the source of such annoyance.

I don't want my fear and laziness to hold me back anymore. I was thinking today that my opportunity to do new things is disappearing. Right now, I have a window of time that I can really do whatever I want. I need to take advantage of that. Who wants to have regret later in life?

So, I am going to try a new thing (or something I haven't done in a long time) each week. I will post my activities, and how they went, here. Some will be simple, like learning to re-string my guitar or try a new recipe. Others will be more elaborate. But I just want to experience and discover new things. In posting them, it will give me some sense of accountability, if only, to myself. But if anybody reads this and has ideas, new things I could try, I would love to hear them.

My first two activities:

Activity #1 - I've heard there are grottos in Malibu. I want to go.

Activity #2 - Go to a horse race track.